I don’t want to be in this position.. but it’s also not something I want to give up. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this good about someone else. It never bothered me because I was happy. But even when A and I were broken up, I didn’t … couldn’t … I don’t know … I couldn’t have feelings for anyone. And it has taken me completely by surprise. It still does. I don’t know what to think. I am just…doing. It’s exciting and fun and makes me slightly nervous. Especially this situation. Which sucks.